In my entire life, any time
I've ever lost something, I've gotten something even better going around the
next corner. It's like one door closes
and another door opens. –Wayne Dyer
I have written about that feeling of lost before but I wanted to take a
moment to dig a little deeper into that feeling and how I got lost in the
darkness. For me, I was living IN the
past, not being present in the ‘now,’ and had no hope for the future. I lost hope.
I lost my courage to endure--I lost myself. The business of raising kids, being a wife,
being an employee and student, being a friend, plus the other many hats that I
have worn in my life I somehow lost me along the way. I forgot how to feel. I forgot how to look in the mirror, think
that I was beautiful, and love that
person more than anyone else around me.
I forgot what I liked and why I liked those things. I forgot the feeling of excitement to wake-up
in the morning. I was numb; I did not
know how or WANT to feel anymore. My
past ruled me, my day-to-day was mundane (at best), and my relationships
suffered.
By many accounts, my life has not awful but my thinking about it
WAS awful. I used that as an excuse to
make bad choices and to justify the blame and anger that was building
inside. I made a long series of bad
decisions to try to put a Band-Aid on my feelings. This did not (and will never) serve me. I feel like I was just existing, not truly
LIVING, and there was very little joy in me.
I did not know how to break out of the cycle or to turn things
around. I found many great resources,
started journaling, found a new love for yoga, and started to feel a twinkle of
‘alive’ again. It was not and has not
been an easy journey but it is definitely worth every tear, heartbreak, and all
of the dark feelings.
I will continue to talk about my story, I am not ashamed anymore
because it is MY STORY and that story molded me into the person that I am
today. Do I have problems? Yes. Do
I make mistakes? Yes. Do I make wrong choices (because there is NO
bad choice)? Yes. These things no longer plague my every waking
thought because I know how to handle them….in my mind. I know how to change my viewpoint and how to
trust the flow and plan of my life.
Do you wake up every day wondering how you can make it through just ONE
more minute? One more hour? One more day?
Does the pain, sadness, and emptiness seem to be a dark cloud that you
cannot seem to shake away from your life?
Contact me today, I can help! If
you are ready to wake up every morning with excitement and positivity, contact
me. Let’s work together to create
solutions in your life. Let’s work
together to devise a plan for your life.
Let’s work together to create solutions for your problems. Let me help you to find your way and teach
you how to FEEL again! Let’s work
together to find you WHY! Email me at anissal@yahoo.com to learn more!
